my health has gotten worse.... my depression is back to REALLY bad and the doctors put me in for emergency tests tomorrow and been moved forward to see a specialist in 4 weeks... public wait would have been 2 years and private wait 14 months but apparently hes so worried he pulled major strings.
When your doctor tells you to rest and rings up all these tests... yeah doesnt make you feel too good.
I have sent an email to 12WBT to cancel my membership because I honestly cant put the motivation needed into it. I failed before i began and that destroys me.
The normal side of me wants to do 12WBT so badly, its all i want! But unfortunatly having the curse of depression plus whatever the fk this is ontop of it... gah
i will write more when i know more.
Im just glad i didnt tell my friends i was doing this, they would just shake their heads and see me as a failure yet again. Mum understands and agrees i should postpone it untill these crappy tests are done. One task at a time. But i still would give anything to be able to continue...
x tiff
Big hugs gorgeous girl, keep your chin up, hope the tests give you some answers and you can start to move forward x
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